I am losing my mind, once again I made a blog post and somehow deleted most of it.  I had even saved what I had done prior to deleting the post but when I tried to find the draft, it was gone.  Why me? And why isn’t there a “go back” button so I could have gotten all of my work back!

Christmas is almost upon us and I am sitting with Gillian watching “The Sound of Music“.  (She had never seen it).  And has been my record for the last couple years, I am sick. Running a low grade fever.  Hopefully it’s just a cold.  I don’t need to spend Christmas in the Emergency Room again.  I’ve been extremely busy with work, the usual doctor’s appointments, Christmas shopping and decorating.  Oh..and Thanksgiving.  There have been holiday parties to attend.  (Tough I know).  The boys are home from college for a month.  I have been working a lot.  In the last 2 weeks, I worked 10 days straight.  Not good for me! It’s no wonder I am sick.  I had a wonderful time on Thanksgiving.  We went to one of my sister’s houses.  I ended up falling asleep for a couple hours.  Fatigue is still a major problem.  I am constantly tired but I don’t sleep very well at night.  I feel like there aren’t enough hours in the day to get things done.

The weather has been crazy for a December in the North East.  It snowed last Saturday so I stayed overnight in the city.  It then snowed again last Tuesday.  A friend with an SUV drove me home.  It was crazy,  Nothing was plowed.  Cars were spun out and in ditches all over the place.  My friend took it very slow and we made it home safely, Thank God.  Yesterday and today the weather was in the 60’s.  Most of the snow is gone.  There won’t be a white Christmas this year.  Christian went snowboarding in a tank top today.  Of course he ended up “ragdolling” as he says (wipe-out) and has a lovely cut on his arm, to go with the aching neck and back he got when he fell on a jump or rail!  Hopefully he’ll make it back to school in one piece.

The doctor appointments continue.  I have some good news though.  I had previously written that I had pleural effusion and I was freaking out about it.  I  went to a pulmonologist and followed up with a chest X-Ray.  The doctor told me that I no longer had fluid in my lung.  There is some radiation damage, which I already knew.  I can now make my appointment for reconstruction.  It will be nice to finally get it done and perhaps look a little closer to normal.  I am definitely apprehensive though.  I am sick of surgeries.  I hate anesthesia.  Hopefully this will be the last major surgery.  I am back to going the flap route.  I can’t imagine having a foreign body (the expander) in my right breast.  The area is irritated enough already.  I have been trying to stretch my right arm.  I can’t lift my right arm as high as my left arm.

I’ve been going to the allergist and getting shots.  Unfortunately I’ve been having some reactions to the shots and the doctor has had to hit me with adrenaline on a couple occasions.  Apparently “dog” has been giving me problems.  We have a dog!  I’ve  been to the acupuncturist on and off.  Too busy.  I will definitely go more often in the new year.  I feel it helps!  I’m still taking a bunch of vitamins and making fresh fruit/vegetable smoothies a couple times a week.

Charles and I actually went on a date of Friday.  We went for brunch and then we saw “Catching Fire“.  I liked it.  He didn’t.  Last night we (Xavier, Gillian, Charles, and I) watched “Kick Ass 2“.  We all loved it.  Gory but a lot of action and a lot of good martial arts moves.

I pray that everyone has a very Merry Christmas and a Happy & Healthy New Year.

Please continue pray for my many friends also fighting cancer.  May they enjoy many more years with their families.  Cancer sucks!

BTW- Just as I was publishing this post, I found my saved draft.  Let’s hope I remember this for my next post that I delete!